I have not been blogging for the past few days. I did not have the mood to. It's the competition week for me and I more or less messed up my matches. The coach/teacher-in-charge was pissed, everything went wrong. Well, today was the same, just that I did not mess up my match at all. No one did as we were against SP, so it was not tough. My coach, stinks. He has been spoiling my game play, and I think I have to start from scratch again.

He has been brainwashing me to hit harder and play drives. Now I can't even play a single drop properly. It is just disgusting. I hate my drops. Since I am not a hard hitter, he keeps criticising my drives when he wants me to play drives. If I play drops, and miss, he will say I am playing it too risky. So now I don't really know what he wants from me. I used to play a variation of both quite well, but now I just simply SUCK.

"If you are playing against a weaker opponent, you can try out some of your shots."

That is what he said to us as a team. Well today, Melvin played some funny shot ONCE and the coach started scolding him for playing that shot. Well we were against a weaker team and he was against a weaker opponent. I don't see any wrong in playing that shot when you are 5-0 up.

For me, I won conceding one point.

"You are not hitting hard..."

The coach said that to me. I am thinking, if I'm against a weaker opponent and I can easily win by playing the way I'm playing, why should I tire myself up by using all my strength hitting the ball. And what happened to "If you are playing against a weaker opponent, you can try out some of your shots."? He is really confusing. Now he says

"I cannot let you're play funny shots as I am still not sure who to pick for the match against RI."

So I'm like okay...whatever.

What made me MOST pissed off was...

Well I was doing a kind harmless deed to help carry the left over container holding 100plus and ice outside on the grass area. Since there was little space for me to move out, I decided to climb over the bench. When I took the think and climbed over the bench, he said something like

"Aaa, see now can't even carry the container. Hands all shaking all the water drop out. Too heavy for you."

Dude, I was climbling over the bench. There were many bags on the floor. It is not easy to walk you know. It is not easy to place my footing, and he is trying to imply that I am weak. Well this could be because..

1) I am skinny and small in his eyes.
2) I cannot hit hard unlike my other teamate.
3) My voice has not broken so he thinks I'm immature.

Man I don't think helping the team this way is good. I should never help the team if the coach is looking at me. No I don't think I should.